Same Shit, Different Day...

arrgghh...! working life sucks... same kinda shit everyday. got a new superior who is a long-winded s.o.b... believe it or not, he can spend an hour for a 5 min. issue (well, at least it was a 5 min. issue to me)... wasting my time! like we don't know what we are doing... sigh... just can't stand him. some might say that i need to adjust myself but heck, i'm already used to the snap the finger type of decision making... this fellow doesn't even dare to make decision on his own. what the hell... am i bitching?! screw him.... he just get into my nerves these days.
wondering if there are people out there who face the same problem. anyone got any cure? kick me in the arse if i am wrong... who cares.

went to the new plant which we are shifting to... renovation started this morning. i'm supposed to be happy and feel excited about it coz it gives operation a bigger space, and all that... but shit! have to stuck in traffic jam everyday. enough of my work...

quite free today, so visited Vanadium's blog... and there is this name 'Elaine' in his blog... click on it and then all of a sudden, found myself covering my mouth (to prevent myself from LOL) and kicking my legs (to release all the energy from my excited state). damn funny! got hooked just reading her latest post. so read thru her whole blog... she even read tom clancy's. damn... must find a way to link to her blog... now i'm all red-eyed... damn tired. need to thank her for all the fun i had this afternoon.

believe it or not, i'm addicted to meditation! should i call it that??? don't know and don't care... but sitting like that really feel good even for 20 min. but after a glass of VSOP... what the hell... but who cares, it feels damn nice. shit.. must stop this before meditation...

got a call from Jo. asked me what kind of woman that i'd like to have as a girlfriend. what kind of woman? hell, wish i knew. can we really list out all the qualities that we like in someone? or accept them as who they are? definitely accept them as who they are, not who i think they can be. who they can be really depends on both of the couple. grow together... mentally and emotionally... as one entity... inseparable... am i lying to myself? do i really feel that way? can i really tolerate all her weaknesses and make them as my own? can i be a rock in a storm and let her lean on? can i turn my head inside out to do something special for her sometimes? can i make her feel loved and cherished after long years of marriage? love has no pride...how truth is it? what is love? what is pride? do they really separable, or is it just the way it is...? do you really have no pride, no pride at all when you are in love? has anyone focus on the moment when they first attracted to each other during their fight? or focus on who's right, who's wrong?....('please stop... i love you'. think the person next to you will listen, i mean REALLY LISTEN!) is it all just me feeling this way?! fuck... there goes my mind again. somebody shoot me!

anyway, if i were to list out... she will be a woman who is full of life and joy....

eh... where am i now??? drifted away... (again!)

must get back on the sofa and meditate.... maybe my mind will come out with a number to buy toto tomorrow... hahaha.....